Yay tonite got BBQ! free food! haha im broke... anyway this is a pic of my beloved, much adored cat, his name is----- Ugly! :p
















yes i know he not ugly at all, he super cute!! but... tats e name my mother gave him when he was a kitten wit his brother.. his brother has nicer colors n was name cutie. n cos ugly keep bullying cutie so my mother name him tat.. n he response to tat name so i cant change it...

e vet nurse had a fun time laughing over it..... so did e doctor.. cos when i made e appointment they had to register my name n my cat's so they put 'Ugly'+ my surname... haiz..

I just watched Elizabethtown today (oo maybe more then yesterday sinces its over midnight), its beautiful! its perfect! its so true! its funny n sad, usually im e type who would cry buckets over little things but e way how its done my eyes onli watered n quickly e scene becomes funny, n makes me smile~ I love e character Clare, in many ways, i can relate to her. N yes im a substitute person too, n drew also i can relate to, e way when he on e helicopter n he looks out then to e emergency exit its something tat i would do too!

I love Clare bubbly character, n how much fun there is in her. She hides her sadness behine a great fun person. I wish i could be like tat, nvr to let bad things take u down all e way, but just take it, then throw it aside to move on. im like tat to a degree but she e expert!! i need to learn from her!!

Oh n is it fair when my mother gave me a digital radio alarm clock about 8yrs ago n its still working great, then after few yrs she decide tat she get 1 for herself too but now hers broke so she came into my room n took e clock tat she gave me all those yrs ago n replace it wit her broken 1 n claims tat she bought it wit her own money n tat she din give me tat clock in e 1st place. It tat fair?!! I hate it when she claims all things tats mine belongs to her. my roller blades tat my father got for me, n she din even ask me, got sent to her relatives in e philippines! n when i cant find it she then told me tat my cousins r having so much fun on them! when i scold her y she din ask me 1st she says tat she e 1 who got e blades wit her money! omg! i remember it was my father who got it for me!!! we shop together for it my mother nvr shop for any sport stuff wit me! I hate her i really hate her so much! she wants to be young n try to act like my sister or something, when i told her she a lousy mother she says tat she a great mother cos she look after all her brothers n sisters, its so different!! Looking after yer sidlings compara to yer own kid is not e same!

She loves to watch documentaries but she doesnt listen to e words n often she makes up wat she sees, n keep asking me questions during e show when im trying to watch it! n i keep telling her to keep quiet n listen n she doesnt! annoying!! bcos of her i haf a pretty short patience, especially wit her. n she says im rude... n i wouldnt change until she stops n listen to herself!! but who am i to say all these.. my friend's mother is also e same n they're about e same age.. so i guess it must be e menopause coming. wat i hate most about her is she onli proud to show me off when compara wit her own friends kids, but she doesnt get happy when they compara me to her. Its like im onli useful for tat! sometimes i wish i died wit my sister, life isnt so great anyway.

Sry i just gotta complain...

Did some changes to this blog, i realized tat deep inside im quite a depressing person so i surround myself wit cute, bright and cheerful things, even in person im a cheerful person as many of my friends would describe me. but in reality im just covering up, i really dun like being sad all e time but sometimes seeing anything tat looks like-like on TV, happy families or animals die n even ppl dying would make me cry. tats y i always look for things to make me happy

Right now im listening to some great music, n then i put my hands together flat against eachother then i open them like a book, n u know e lines u haf on yer hands somehow on my hands e lines join up to form a smile, tat made me happy. Seeing a dog makes me happy, seeing a leaves blowing around carelessly makes me happy, seeing swifts trying to race e cars on e road makes me happy. i see n notice small things around to cheer me up

somehow even when i notice such things, i notice them more then ppl. its more amusing to see nature then ppl.

haha.. its been awhile since i posted.. im just lazy when it comes to writing/typing something.. also i was mostly interested in my friends blog where im part of it. something happen made me start to post again.. no i dun think i want to share it.. even in here.. its sad.. i dun even want to remember it again if i ever read back my blog entry..

But watever tat happened, make me thot of alot of things n it made me want to blog again.. but im still lazy.. haha.. my brain thinks faster then i can type, if there is a way to think n e words just post itself up then i be blogging more often. Also those meaningful, werid, funny, offpoint and even no point... thots often happened when i dun haf any writing materials nearby to write it down, so by e time i got home i forgotten wat it was. n its always best to write when tat inspiration hits u. Well come to think of it i did manage to write 1 down... but its silly... cos i got bitten by a mosquito n it itches so much tat i wrote it down.. not a good inspiration to post here.

well hopefully now i be blogging often but i think most likely i be lazy again so my next post might be in a yr, so tata!

Oh i remember something nice today! its been raining for 3 days n somehow e sun decides to shine thru today, i luv morning warm sun after days of rain~ cosy. My cheeks felt warm tat i thot i may haf rosy cheeks, n its so nice to haf my feet dry!