Today for afew hrs i manage to watch cable! yay!! n for afew hrs too! I watched National Geographic n they were showing a documentary on a volcano tats going to erupt in e philippines (more liked it erupted already..) anyway they show alot on how e US army station there n it was their largest 1 too haf to abandone e place n also help many of e locals to leave too, but some of e native local in e mountain side doesnt want to leave so it took alot of convincing tat some finally get their butts moving but there is others being stubborn remain, so too bad for them they died except for 3 ppl who bury themselves in bat shit...

Volcano erupting is a long process.. it expand for days n they mostly show ppl who r in danger but i dun feel sad for them somehow... even tho im born there.... but something they show in it make me felt so sad!! my heart aches!! cos after many days ashes keep raining down n at e same time there was a typhon too!! so e rivers were over flowing wit mud tat flows like raging water! Any houses in e way simply gets wash along n ppl were trying to hang on to anything tat floats.. im still not feeling anything for them my mind was like 'ppl, ppl, ppl oo crazy woman.. man.. floating body..y r they dragging a dead cow? ahaha they fell in! yes run ahahaha' then i saw 2 wet muddy cats huddling together on a flat wooden thing floating on tat raging mud!! NNuuuUUuuUUUUuuuu MEOW MEOW!!! nUUUuuUUuUUU.. haiz my heart really aches..... T__T

Something just pop into my head, 2 person haf witness this.. my mother and someone who manage to catch me in deep sleep. they say i mumble in my sleep which i find it werid.. cos i really dunno tat i do tat... but also i wonder wat i mumble about. is toking in yer sleep mean something like health problems? or a spirit is toking to me in my sleep? if so i wonder wat we tok about cos i dun remember any dreams when i woke up.

opps forgot to add in.. after i pray when i walked into my room i stumb my toe! T__T on e armchair in my room.. its been a long time since i stumb my toe on anything!! n u know usually when u accident kick yer toe on a leg of a chair it just bloody hurts!! but it doesnt bleed right?

haha sadly mine does.. it must be pretty hard to actually bust e skin, din know it was bleeding till it left blood stains on e ground n tats e 2nd time it happened... e 1st time my toe bleed cos i cut too deep then i walked to e kicthen when i walked back i was wondering who e stupid idiot who left blood stains on e floor, then i realized its me!!! WeeeeeEEE~~ ^^

Ah long time since i posted up anything, just to update there a new cat in e house... long haired... trying to find a new home for her.. she kept up up all night on e 1st day.. wow an accident just happen outside my house really!! hmm cant see anything.. trees blocking..

But wat made me post today is actually more like a little freaky, my 1st family home in singapore was in blk 470 in tampines (yes yes.. i guess it haunted there, so many suicide cases) i stayed there from 5yrs old till about 11, n while i was there me n my sister always see a black shadow at e corner of our eye but when we turn to look, it zip away. But it doesnt strike us as odd or anything cos we were young n thot it was normal, onli after i moved out n many yrs later i realized it was not.. normal.. so since i've moved i nvr seen any shadow thing at e corner of my eye, but these few weeks its happening again... i din think much of it but somehow today wat i saw was alittle more then wat i been seeing for e past few weeks. i was standing at my door going in to e house n looking out at an angle then e corner of my eye i see a large man shape shadow walking towards e wall, i turn my head quickly to look cos i thot it was a neighbour but there was nothing there n my mother was outside feeding e cat so she also can tell if there is someone there.

Cos it was larger n more clear then i haf ever seen so far so i whisper to tell my mother, she kinda got serious n pulled me to e alter n light 3 candles, n try to squeeze a rosary over my head, which doesnt fit... n made me pray. so now e rosary cross is taken off n put onto my braclet..

These kinda things happen in philippine so she takes it seriously, i cant really recall wat i saw e past few weeks but i remember some were white n small n floating n some were black, but today was e 1st time i see something like wat i saw. i think i ever saw in my room too but those were white.. my mother says tat maybe i must haf gone somewhere n this thing decide to follow me.. now tats creepy... i nvr do anything to them... so im not afraid.. somehow halfway typing this out my shoulders ache... i better go get my cat to company me...