Did some changes to this blog, i realized tat deep inside im quite a depressing person so i surround myself wit cute, bright and cheerful things, even in person im a cheerful person as many of my friends would describe me. but in reality im just covering up, i really dun like being sad all e time but sometimes seeing anything tat looks like-like on TV, happy families or animals die n even ppl dying would make me cry. tats y i always look for things to make me happy
Right now im listening to some great music, n then i put my hands together flat against eachother then i open them like a book, n u know e lines u haf on yer hands somehow on my hands e lines join up to form a smile, tat made me happy. Seeing a dog makes me happy, seeing a leaves blowing around carelessly makes me happy, seeing swifts trying to race e cars on e road makes me happy. i see n notice small things around to cheer me up
somehow even when i notice such things, i notice them more then ppl. its more amusing to see nature then ppl.
Friday, January 13, 2006
haha.. its been awhile since i posted.. im just lazy when it comes to writing/typing something.. also i was mostly interested in my friends blog where im part of it. something happen made me start to post again.. no i dun think i want to share it.. even in here.. its sad.. i dun even want to remember it again if i ever read back my blog entry..
But watever tat happened, make me thot of alot of things n it made me want to blog again.. but im still lazy.. haha.. my brain thinks faster then i can type, if there is a way to think n e words just post itself up then i be blogging more often. Also those meaningful, werid, funny, offpoint and even no point... thots often happened when i dun haf any writing materials nearby to write it down, so by e time i got home i forgotten wat it was. n its always best to write when tat inspiration hits u. Well come to think of it i did manage to write 1 down... but its silly... cos i got bitten by a mosquito n it itches so much tat i wrote it down.. not a good inspiration to post here.
well hopefully now i be blogging often but i think most likely i be lazy again so my next post might be in a yr, so tata!
Oh i remember something nice today! its been raining for 3 days n somehow e sun decides to shine thru today, i luv morning warm sun after days of rain~ cosy. My cheeks felt warm tat i thot i may haf rosy cheeks, n its so nice to haf my feet dry!
But watever tat happened, make me thot of alot of things n it made me want to blog again.. but im still lazy.. haha.. my brain thinks faster then i can type, if there is a way to think n e words just post itself up then i be blogging more often. Also those meaningful, werid, funny, offpoint and even no point... thots often happened when i dun haf any writing materials nearby to write it down, so by e time i got home i forgotten wat it was. n its always best to write when tat inspiration hits u. Well come to think of it i did manage to write 1 down... but its silly... cos i got bitten by a mosquito n it itches so much tat i wrote it down.. not a good inspiration to post here.
well hopefully now i be blogging often but i think most likely i be lazy again so my next post might be in a yr, so tata!
Oh i remember something nice today! its been raining for 3 days n somehow e sun decides to shine thru today, i luv morning warm sun after days of rain~ cosy. My cheeks felt warm tat i thot i may haf rosy cheeks, n its so nice to haf my feet dry!
Thursday, August 19, 2004
I hate ppl who can't keep their promises, they dun seem to get it, how I take promises to heart. Each time a promise is made, ppl feel safe that its true and will be kept, and rest with peace in their hearts. Maybe for some ppl its alright to have them broken, maybe cause they are contented with their own lifes, so some broken promises would'nt make much of a deal.
Maybe its just me, I start out with a pretty happy life, no worries with child-like happiness, nothing could really bother me even if my father was drunk most of the week, my parents both make promises to me and my sister but we never hold them seriously, cause.. well.. we're quite happy. But it was onli later when promises made a great deal to me, all of the sudden I was alone, my happy and carefree life was gone, and promises tat were made then seem to calm me set me at ease... but often- no all the time they were broken. Each time 1 is made it sets me high and made me dream of much better things to come, but as each 1 of them were broken its like a stab to my heart. Each stabbing and wounding makes me cling onto more promises hopeing anyone of them might come true, the worst ones comes from my own parents. Now whatever promises they make I can never ever bring myself to believe, they may think tat im stubborn and all but its really their own fault, each time they break 1 promise to me it steel my heart against them now the wall is 3 inch thick.
So now any promises made to me however small, it must be kept. To a child, a promise meant a whole world, by breaking it, you destroy everything.
Maybe its just me, I start out with a pretty happy life, no worries with child-like happiness, nothing could really bother me even if my father was drunk most of the week, my parents both make promises to me and my sister but we never hold them seriously, cause.. well.. we're quite happy. But it was onli later when promises made a great deal to me, all of the sudden I was alone, my happy and carefree life was gone, and promises tat were made then seem to calm me set me at ease... but often- no all the time they were broken. Each time 1 is made it sets me high and made me dream of much better things to come, but as each 1 of them were broken its like a stab to my heart. Each stabbing and wounding makes me cling onto more promises hopeing anyone of them might come true, the worst ones comes from my own parents. Now whatever promises they make I can never ever bring myself to believe, they may think tat im stubborn and all but its really their own fault, each time they break 1 promise to me it steel my heart against them now the wall is 3 inch thick.
So now any promises made to me however small, it must be kept. To a child, a promise meant a whole world, by breaking it, you destroy everything.
Monday, June 21, 2004
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Wednesday, June 09, 2004
1 of the many weridos I've met in the game....enjoy...
Stickoking : cool'
Stickoking : can i try?
from Stickoking : hihi
from Stickoking : are u bot?
to Stickoking : wat....
from Stickoking : help
to Stickoking : ................
from Stickoking : me just wan talk to u
from Stickoking : did me do something wrong
to Stickoking : yes u ks me many times...
from Stickoking : where got
from Stickoking : i ks u
from Stickoking : i never touch ur monster
to Stickoking : u did
from Stickoking : but i just came on
from Stickoking : how can me ks u
to Stickoking : u just did just nowya
to Stickoking : 2 times
Stickoking : cos i almost die
Stickoking : no hp
Stickoking : sorry the were hiting me
to Stickoking : then u dun hit
Stickoking *Sry*
[] biteme [] *Swt*
from Stickoking : whats ur lv
to Stickoking : 71
from Stickoking : me is 70
from Stickoking : u wan heal tell me ok
to Stickoking : no need i haf vitata...
from Stickoking : me heal is 676
from Stickoking : ur only 100
to Stickoking : i dun get hit much..
from Stickoking : can me ask u something
to Stickoking : ?
from Stickoking : promise u wont get angry?
to Stickoking : ....
from Stickoking : romise lar
(i hate this kind of ppl.....)
from Stickoking : promise lar
to Stickoking : ............
from Stickoking : say u promise please
to Stickoking : wat is it....
from Stickoking : promise first
to Stickoking : then u dun ask
from Stickoking : i wan ask
from Stickoking : its kinda importatnt o me
to Stickoking : ...........
from Stickoking : please promise
to Stickoking : i dun even know u u can ask someone else
from Stickoking : nono
from Stickoking : its got to do with u
to Stickoking : .....
(after tat i was already pretty annoy by him so nvr reply until he happen
to see me damn!)
Stickoking : u again
Stickoking : why u no reply me?
to Stickoking : wat?
from Stickoking : why just now u no reply me
to Stickoking : ......
from Stickoking : can me be ur friend?
to Stickoking : ........
Stickoking : can or not
to Stickoking : u sound very young...
from Stickoking : hahah
from Stickoking : yeah i know
from Stickoking : how old are u anyways
from Stickoking : i am 15
to Stickoking : im 7yrs older...
from Stickoking : ur 21
(omg!! 15yrs old already he still cant count!!!!)
from Stickoking : OMG OMG
to Stickoking : 22 lar ..
from Stickoking : OOO
to Stickoking : swt
from Stickoking : hey
from Stickoking : errm
from Stickoking : i think u can be my sis or mom like that
(wtf...)
to Stickoking : yer mom....
from Stickoking : ya
from Stickoking : ok
from Stickoking : from now i call u mommu
(annoyed..)
from Stickoking : mommy
(very...annoyed..)
to Stickoking : tat would mean tat i had a baby when i was 7yrs old........
from Stickoking : yeah
from Stickoking : but
to Stickoking : .................................................................
from Stickoking : we both know ur not my real mom
to Stickoking : .................................................................
from Stickoking : so how about it mommu
( *an* )
from Stickoking : mommy
( *an* *an* *an* *an* *an* *an* *an* *an* *an* *an* *an* *an*)
to Stickoking : ....................
from Stickoking : can?
from Stickoking : can or not
to Stickoking : my agi maybe older then u but for sure i look the same as yer age
to Stickoking : age*
from Stickoking : what u mean u look the same as my age
(noone wants to be a mommy at my tender age of 22!!!!! nooooo not meeeee!!!)
to Stickoking : ya
from Stickoking : but
from Stickoking : but
from Stickoking : i wan u be mumommu
(the thot tat running in my mind "if i was really yer mommy i would stick needles into yer prick....")
from Stickoking : u wan lar
from Stickoking : i wan u be my mommy
(" lotsa needles...... wit hooks at the end so tat when i pull it out its gonna hurt bad muhahahahaha")
to Stickoking : no..
from Stickoking : can u be my big sister
("wat be a sis?? oh no problem but the onli trouble is i onli be a big sis to girls onli, so tat means we just haf to cut off yer badly damaged prick n make u 1"chop chop chop ^^)
Stickoking *Hmm*
Stickoking *ho*
Stickoking : .ho
Stickoking *ho*
[] biteme [] *Swt*
Stickoking *ho*
Stickoking *ho*
Stickoking : *ho*
[] biteme [] *...*
from Stickoking : can or not
from Stickoking : i g2g bye mommmy
("...")
from Stickoking : ill miss u
("...")
to Stickoking : ................
from Stickoking : why u canot say bye also
to Stickoking : sayoooonaraaaaaaaaaa
(at this point i also want to annoy him)
from Stickoking : say in english lar not japanese
to Stickoking : ja mate
to Stickoking : muhaha
from Stickoking : pif
from Stickoking : how dare u say to ur son like that
(since when i agreed?)
to Stickoking : MUHAHAHAHAAHAHA
from Stickoking : for a 22 year old u sure act like 10
from Stickoking : oo i am gona ks u no
from Stickoking : now
from Stickoking : muahhahahahhah
to Stickoking : cos i lost my childhood
from Stickoking : ermm whatever mommy
to Stickoking : better to live life n enjoy it in anyway possible
to Stickoking : when yer 30 to 70++ then u understand
(i figure it will take about tat long for him to grow up)
from Stickoking : how do u understand ur not even 25 ur 2
from Stickoking : 22
from Stickoking : gawd ur soo childish
(ooo look who talking!!)
to Stickoking : cos im force to grow up at 11
from Stickoking : oooo
from Stickoking : so then u can be my mommy?
to Stickoking : no...
from Stickoking : why
to Stickoking : im not old...
from Stickoking : u are
(bad mistake...calling any girls old is a taboo!!)
from Stickoking : i wan a young momu
to Stickoking : ....
from Stickoking : i think ur 6 or 10 years old and u dont act like agurl i think ur a gu
from Stickoking : guy
to Stickoking : then find someone closer to yer age
(so insulting... he log off after this so I cant scold him more on his choice use of words)
Stickoking : cool'
Stickoking : can i try?
from Stickoking : hihi
from Stickoking : are u bot?
to Stickoking : wat....
from Stickoking : help
to Stickoking : ................
from Stickoking : me just wan talk to u
from Stickoking : did me do something wrong
to Stickoking : yes u ks me many times...
from Stickoking : where got
from Stickoking : i ks u
from Stickoking : i never touch ur monster
to Stickoking : u did
from Stickoking : but i just came on
from Stickoking : how can me ks u
to Stickoking : u just did just nowya
to Stickoking : 2 times
Stickoking : cos i almost die
Stickoking : no hp
Stickoking : sorry the were hiting me
to Stickoking : then u dun hit
Stickoking *Sry*
[] biteme [] *Swt*
from Stickoking : whats ur lv
to Stickoking : 71
from Stickoking : me is 70
from Stickoking : u wan heal tell me ok
to Stickoking : no need i haf vitata...
from Stickoking : me heal is 676
from Stickoking : ur only 100
to Stickoking : i dun get hit much..
from Stickoking : can me ask u something
to Stickoking : ?
from Stickoking : promise u wont get angry?
to Stickoking : ....
from Stickoking : romise lar
(i hate this kind of ppl.....)
from Stickoking : promise lar
to Stickoking : ............
from Stickoking : say u promise please
to Stickoking : wat is it....
from Stickoking : promise first
to Stickoking : then u dun ask
from Stickoking : i wan ask
from Stickoking : its kinda importatnt o me
to Stickoking : ...........
from Stickoking : please promise
to Stickoking : i dun even know u u can ask someone else
from Stickoking : nono
from Stickoking : its got to do with u
to Stickoking : .....
(after tat i was already pretty annoy by him so nvr reply until he happen
to see me damn!)
Stickoking : u again
Stickoking : why u no reply me?
to Stickoking : wat?
from Stickoking : why just now u no reply me
to Stickoking : ......
from Stickoking : can me be ur friend?
to Stickoking : ........
Stickoking : can or not
to Stickoking : u sound very young...
from Stickoking : hahah
from Stickoking : yeah i know
from Stickoking : how old are u anyways
from Stickoking : i am 15
to Stickoking : im 7yrs older...
from Stickoking : ur 21
(omg!! 15yrs old already he still cant count!!!!)
from Stickoking : OMG OMG
to Stickoking : 22 lar ..
from Stickoking : OOO
to Stickoking : swt
from Stickoking : hey
from Stickoking : errm
from Stickoking : i think u can be my sis or mom like that
(wtf...)
to Stickoking : yer mom....
from Stickoking : ya
from Stickoking : ok
from Stickoking : from now i call u mommu
(annoyed..)
from Stickoking : mommy
(very...annoyed..)
to Stickoking : tat would mean tat i had a baby when i was 7yrs old........
from Stickoking : yeah
from Stickoking : but
to Stickoking : .................................................................
from Stickoking : we both know ur not my real mom
to Stickoking : .................................................................
from Stickoking : so how about it mommu
( *an* )
from Stickoking : mommy
( *an* *an* *an* *an* *an* *an* *an* *an* *an* *an* *an* *an*)
to Stickoking : ....................
from Stickoking : can?
from Stickoking : can or not
to Stickoking : my agi maybe older then u but for sure i look the same as yer age
to Stickoking : age*
from Stickoking : what u mean u look the same as my age
(noone wants to be a mommy at my tender age of 22!!!!! nooooo not meeeee!!!)
to Stickoking : ya
from Stickoking : but
from Stickoking : but
from Stickoking : i wan u be mumommu
(the thot tat running in my mind "if i was really yer mommy i would stick needles into yer prick....")
from Stickoking : u wan lar
from Stickoking : i wan u be my mommy
(" lotsa needles...... wit hooks at the end so tat when i pull it out its gonna hurt bad muhahahahaha")
to Stickoking : no..
from Stickoking : can u be my big sister
("wat be a sis?? oh no problem but the onli trouble is i onli be a big sis to girls onli, so tat means we just haf to cut off yer badly damaged prick n make u 1"chop chop chop ^^)
Stickoking *Hmm*
Stickoking *ho*
Stickoking : .ho
Stickoking *ho*
[] biteme [] *Swt*
Stickoking *ho*
Stickoking *ho*
Stickoking : *ho*
[] biteme [] *...*
from Stickoking : can or not
from Stickoking : i g2g bye mommmy
("...")
from Stickoking : ill miss u
("...")
to Stickoking : ................
from Stickoking : why u canot say bye also
to Stickoking : sayoooonaraaaaaaaaaa
(at this point i also want to annoy him)
from Stickoking : say in english lar not japanese
to Stickoking : ja mate
to Stickoking : muhaha
from Stickoking : pif
from Stickoking : how dare u say to ur son like that
(since when i agreed?)
to Stickoking : MUHAHAHAHAAHAHA
from Stickoking : for a 22 year old u sure act like 10
from Stickoking : oo i am gona ks u no
from Stickoking : now
from Stickoking : muahhahahahhah
to Stickoking : cos i lost my childhood
from Stickoking : ermm whatever mommy
to Stickoking : better to live life n enjoy it in anyway possible
to Stickoking : when yer 30 to 70++ then u understand
(i figure it will take about tat long for him to grow up)
from Stickoking : how do u understand ur not even 25 ur 2
from Stickoking : 22
from Stickoking : gawd ur soo childish
(ooo look who talking!!)
to Stickoking : cos im force to grow up at 11
from Stickoking : oooo
from Stickoking : so then u can be my mommy?
to Stickoking : no...
from Stickoking : why
to Stickoking : im not old...
from Stickoking : u are
(bad mistake...calling any girls old is a taboo!!)
from Stickoking : i wan a young momu
to Stickoking : ....
from Stickoking : i think ur 6 or 10 years old and u dont act like agurl i think ur a gu
from Stickoking : guy
to Stickoking : then find someone closer to yer age
(so insulting... he log off after this so I cant scold him more on his choice use of words)
